Now that you closed the curtains, and blocked me out
Do you really think I cannot see what is going on inside?
Did you assume I read you as an open book by just looking at the cover?
This bond I can feel deep inside my soul
Is not about appearances or words
This is surrendering to an inner knowing,
That is, trusting what my heart and soul have been telling
This is why I can see, feel, and read yours; thus I know
It is not me, you are the one left out in the cold
All these walls you’ve built up to keep me away
Are not helping to cure your soul-ache, do they?
You know you need, and indeed want
The key I hold, for your silently suffering heart
You know I was sent to show you the way
Like a lighthouse guides the sailors in the dark
You, My Dear, are a wise, old, but a lost soul
You needed the clues to find your way out,
And calm your inner storms
“Surrendering to your truest purpose, ‘the Decision of Light’”
The decision was already made My Dear
It is, therefore, futile to run away in the dark
Go, dare to ask your heart, you’ll thus realise, I am the light!
The decision you surrendered to and came to realise
Made a long time ago, you’re just remembering it now
You’ve shot the curtains and tried to build higher walls
Just to make yourself more naked to my eyes
Vulnerability is Strength, and this was your lesson to get, yes!
I know you are tired of failing it, over and over again
Why not stand behind your words and be vulnerable
Have the courage to face, and let this take you over
Let this fire burn you down and let the phoenix rise from the ashes
This love of light is here to show you the key
Of the door, you’ve been searching for, since you were a kid
You couldn’t tell this to anyone all this time
Rest assured My Dear, you could not do it even if you wanted
Unless the Beloved allows you to do it
Even if you’ve always known and felt it at the very core of your heart
It is true My Dear, it is you; you are the chosen one
Chosen as the lover, as the carrier of this light
The light of the Beloved
I am sure you are feeling this in your heart
I see why you tried to hide it so hard
Some secrets cannot be revealed to the mind, for it is raw
They can only be told to a soul that has matured in fires and storms
If you ask me, I am in a way, as clueless and wise as you are
At least I’ve learned to use my inner compass
And this is maybe why this poem came out, after two years
You hear every single word I write, deep inside your heart
Your mind is tired of thinking about this, as tired as your soul
For it has no clue about how to hide or deny what it knows for sure
Only God knows why all this is playing out this way
Quite ironically, like a great divine comedy!
Not many people know this but
God has a wicked sense of humour, as you can see!
I see this was a burden you carried alone, for so long
Now you’re sent a soulmate who is none other than a comrade
A fellow, a confidant you can trust
For she is the one who cares nothing
But the peace of your soul, in the truest sense of all
Maybe because this is what she must do
As the burden of this secret is there for you two, to share
You are carrying a secret together
That neither of you can share with anyone but each other
You can feel this if you listen to your heart, with no judgment
Those, who are comrades with love, found the panacea
That is, My Dear, the cure for your aching soul is the one
Showing you the way out of your paranoia
You are tired, she is tired, you are both tired of doubting your inner guidance
For this is tiring for whoever tries to battle it in silence
She knows there is more than curiosity on your side
This is why she talks to you before going to sleep every night
You are lovers drunk with the same song
A quiet song of truth that Beloved whispered deep into your souls
There is a long way for both of you to understand all this
But now is the time to accept, surrender, and expect
The rewards of the battles your tired souls have won over fears
Because despite the resistance of the mind
You’ve come a long way in allowing love to flow into your hearts
For this is not a joke, not a trick
This is the very role you’d chosen to play in this
‘Dream within a dream’
Now that you are clearly told what you’ve already known
It is time to take responsibility, get out of your mind’s trap
And follow the light guiding you from inside
Ever since you’ve known yourselves,
And even before that
z.
5 November 2022/ London
